I’m still numb so I don’t even know how I feel about this. He’s coming home tomorrow, Hospice will be coming in… I don’t know what this all means. I’ve never lost anyone in my family I was close to. I can only hope I get through this with the help of my Monster family and my friends and most of all my best friend, my sister Jamie.. But let’s be honest, nerve pills will probably be in the mix as well as Mary Jane.  

But seriously, Please pray monsters, more for my mother than me. We knew this was coming but we didn’t think it would be so soon. I have 3 uncles who haven’t even called, but their days will come. My Mommy has been here for 4 months now, because when he got too weak I couldn’t do it alone, I didn’t know what to do. She has been wonderful. I’m more scared for her than I am anyone, so please just keep her in your prayers as well. 
I said I was numb, but now I feel something I haven’t felt in a long time. 

I love you all. XX